Apparently, it's not just the cancer fatigue making me tired. I went to CBCC last week. My body has pretty much stopped absorbing nutrients. We're not sure why at this time. The doctor is ordering some nuclear tests to see what the heck is up with my stupid body. My vitamin B levels were so low that my doc wanted to hospitalize me. I don't think so! Like I have the time or money for that. Instead, we started a new treatment. I'll have shots (not the kind you usually get at the doctor's office for Vitamin B deficiency) once a week for the next 4 months. OMG! The shots burn like fire being sent into my ass cheek. Horrible! The kind that most people have injected is Cyanocobalamin. I'll be having Methylcobalamin injections. This will make the vitamin stay in my body longer and with more potency. The problem is that none of the pharmacies in our area carry the better form of the vitamin. Therefore, the liquid has to be shipped to me from San Francisco. Luckily, I know how to give myself shots. So, I won't have to drive to Bakersfield every week to get shots. I'll be able to do them at home.
I wonder how many of you know what vitamin deficiencies can do to your body. It can cause extreme weakness, tiredness, or light-headedness. Don't tell anyone, but I actually fell asleep at work three times last week. Once, I hit my head on my computer and cut my face. Cute. It can cause rapid heartbeat and breathing. There's nothing better than feeling like your heart is going to dislodge and fly out your nose. It can cause your tongue to be sore. I have cankor sores like nobody's business. It can cause easy bruising or bleeding. So, I kind of look polka-dottish right now because of my bruises. However, that's not the scary thing. On Thursday, I started bleeding out of both my ears at the same time. I totally freaked out! I already knew that this vitamin thing was going on, so I went online to see if this was normal. Well, of course, it's not normal! I was bleeding out of my ears for heaven's sake. It is, however, a symptom of my vitamin deficiency. Whew! Weight loss is another symptom. I know I shouldn't complain, by I am now down to 117 pounds. I look old! Yuck! I have seriously never in my life wanted to put on weight. Now, I do. This particular vitamin deficiency also has quite a bit to do with your emotional stability. My poor man. I turned into Super Bitch this weekend. Bet you didn't know bitchiness is a super power, did you? I definitely deserve a cape for my antics, and my lovely fiance deserves a Purple Heart for dealing with me. Add to all of that the memory loss, problems concentrating, and fuzzy thinking, and you can see why this is a pretty important thing to figure out. Can I please just be well now? Ugh! I'll post a resource for vitamin deficiency symptoms and treatments on the resource page if you're interesting or need some help with some of the symptoms I've been experiencing.
OK. Done complaining.
Let me tell you about my wonderful Mother's Day so you will cheer up. On Saturday, my wonderful boyfriend took me and our youngest urchin to dinner at the place he took me for our first date. Delicious! I also got to see one of my former students. Nothing makes me feel so good as seeing my kiddos being successful! We had frozen yogurt after dinner and went to Lowe's to buy flowers for my yard which my cute little 6'2" boy is planting for me all this week. Pictures will be loaded next blog post. Then, we went home to watch a movie. I'm up to Fast and Furious 4 now. Why oh why did no one ever tell me that this movie series is simply hot cars with eye candy? Love it! Got pulled over on my way home. The officer asked me where I lived, said, "Have a good night," then got in his car and left. Weirdness!
Sunday, my love's daughters called me. Then, my darling daughter took my mommy and me out to lunch. I got to have some quality time with my grandson and my two best girls while eating awesome Mexican food. Does life get any better than that? I think not! I'm working on a piece of yard art for my mom. It was supposed to be her birthday present, but it's still not done. Oh well. I think she'll enjoy it once it's complete. Now, it's a birthday/Mother's Day gift. Hopefully, I get it done before it's also my dad's Father's Day gift. After my afternoon with my Janie, Ma, and Kayden, Ian and I had a little quality time doing some shopping for the house. My son that lives in the Bay Area called me. I got a good half hour conversation with him. I am such a lucky mommy to have such wonderful, loving, caring, wise, intelligent, beautiful, responsible young people in my life. Whatever I did in my karmic past to get this much good in this part of my life, let's hope I can keep it going until this journey is done.
If you think that once you hear that "Remission" word that the battle is over, wow are you wrong! Everyday, I learn. Everyday, I grow. Everyday, I fight. My wish is for you to have the support and love to do the same no matter what your battles are.