1) I no longer have to wear the medieval shoulder boulder torture device. In fact, I never have to wear a bra again unless I just want to look cute. I now have cage free range roaming boobies.
2) I get to exercise! Oh yeah. You heard me. I can do things other than just walk. No upper body work outs, but I can jump around, run, swim, whatever I want as long as I'm not lifting any weight or putting any pressure on my pectoral muscles. I worked out 4 times this week. I'm sore and extremely happy.
I know I've said this before, but let me reiterate. Just because my cancer is in remission, does not mean that every little piece of my life has just gone back to "normal." Cancer has changed everything. It has changed how I view the world, how I live my life, and who I am. Don't get me wrong. This is absolutely not a negative. This journey has been one of the best things that has every happened to me. I now see all the beauty in the world instead of stressing over things that don't really matter. I choose how I will spend my time instead of dwelling on what I "should" or "should not" be doing. I am stronger, better, happier, and healthier than I have ever been. Weird, huh? However, because things have changed so drastically, it's very difficult to know what "normal" is. I get tired much more easily than I did before cancer. I have aches and pains that you can't even imagine. My body doesn't look like my body nor does it feel like me. People look at me and think that I'm all better, because I'm in remission. Yet, there are days that I don't know how to move forward -- how to live without the fear that the cancer will come back -- how to put one foot in front of the other -- how to look in the mirror without seeing my scars and reliving all that has happened.
I say all of this to let you know that I have so much more to learn . . . so much more to say . . . so much more to share. I've decided that as I continue to grow and recover that I will write my blog once a month instead of once a week. I do this not because I'm tired of talking to you all or because I have nothing to say. It's just because the journey now becomes less about the little steps to getting well and more about leaps toward knowing what this life is really for. I believe that I am here today, because it wasn't my time. That must mean that there is a purpose and a meaning to all of this. I hope that you will continue to grow and learn with me as I jump into what this new life holds for me.
Until next time, be strong and love life. I love every single one of you!