George Carlin
I try to be good. I really do. Currently, I am working on finding my peace, loving myself, and being happy. So, occasionally, I have a glass of wine, spend time with my girlfriends, or post silly things on Facebook. I promise that all of these things are about MY life, about finding my place in the world with all the changes that have been happening, about fighting to be healthy in every way possible. In no way is anything I do about ANYONE else. Believe this.
I have been incredibly sick for two days. Have no idea what is going on now. I think it has to do with the side effects of the antibiotics I'm taking for the infection. I've been so sick that I just want my mommy, but I'm a big girl, and I can take care of myself. I have been doing this . . . listening to my body and doing the things I need to be well. I am learning to stand up for myself and to not let the negativity of others affect my self esteem and my happiness. Sometimes, that road is a little rocky. Good thing I have hiking boots.
I have to tell you a little story of a bright spot in my week before I give you my bit of stress free holiday advice (although you might have picked up on it already from the above paragraphs). I was on ebay the other night when I couldn't sleep. This is always dangerous. I bid on a leather jacket even though I was feeling guilty about spending money on myself when our finances are tight and it's Christmas. I bid $13.00 on the jacket never thinking I would get it. Turns out that I had the high bid. This jacket is so me! Goat head embroidered on the back, zippers, retro, fits me like it was made for me. When it arrived it was packaged with a lavender sachet and a handwritten note from the seller. She sent me $10 cash to fix some damage that was done to the collar. There are angels out there. Believe in them, and you will see them. I was visited by two other such angels this week. Those I'll keep to myself, because they were special encounters just for me. OOoooo! You're curious. Too bad. Just know that they exist and that there is good in the world.
So for today's tip:
Focus on what matters.
Today, I focused on the relationship I have with my best friend. We shared some very deep, personal things that we don't share with others. This is so important as I make it through this holiday without breasts. I had a wonderful friend give me the gift of time this week. It's wasn't about money or what was spent. It was about love and the joy of enjoying each other's company. The people in your life are so much more important than gifts under the tree. Think about what you want for Christmas. I guarantee that's what others want. I want to be with my family, talk, laugh, and just be together. Betcha that's all they really want to. Well, Ian might want a cold air intake system for his truck, but other than that, I'm sure everyone would agree with me.
Be true to yourselves, my loves.